Loving myself is hard

Posted by Ashima Joshi
July 6, 2017

Self-Published

Loving myself is hard…

When its harder to put into words my insecurity..

That nobody will never know the real me…

That I might just be a body to somebody…

Just a ‘woman’s body’…

My body parts… Just another thing to laugh about… Or something to gaze at maybe…

Loving myself is hard..

When I try to look ‘hot’ when I am standing bare in front of the mirror…

To feel happy in my skin…to boost my ‘body image’….

But I feel guilty instead..

Because ‘what if ‘anyone sees me.. What will they ‘think’…

Loving myself is hard..

When I sometimes try not to be conscious of my body and concentrate on the task at hand…

But I’m reminded every time that I am a woman… And my body is something I should be ashamed of..

Loving myself is hard…

When I think I’m to sensitive to let this affect my posture….

When I know its me who is to blame

Loving myself is hard… And expressing this is even harder..

That it has affected me all throughout my childhood and it still does…

It takes every ounce of courage… You bet..

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