I struggle to face my demons. They keep growing stronger with each passing day. Sometimes, they end up overpowering me. It feels like a never-ending battle.
I avoid talking about this in public. Even my family members have no idea about the problems I’m facing currently. Everybody says that depression is ‘all in my head’. Even my mom doesn’t understand it completely. The anxiety has just been growing over time, making it difficult for me to breathe.
I have been struggling for the past four years. Last year, it became especially worse. It feels like I cannot explain my pain to anyone else. My cousin did not want me to attend her wedding, and so, I stayed away from the celebrations. If you’re someone who has been through anxiety and depression, you will understand what I mean. It’s like a dark cloud of emotions that sits right on top of my head. Trust me, it is not easy to live with. For me, writing this post has not been an easy task. I feel vulnerable and I’m scared of being judged. We tend to conceal our emotions because of this fear of being judged for what we go through.
It was much easier for me to speak to my dad about this. I’m fortunate enough to have a group of friends who are always there to help me out. They advised me to talk to a therapist. Reading and writing have helped me a lot.
I chose to write this post because I wanted to vent out my feeling. I hope that this post inspires others to come out and share similar stories. In order to treat mental health, we must first understand that it’s just a disease which can be cured.