It’s 12:15 am on a beautiful spring day. I’m extremely sleepy, tired, exhausted and mentally-prepared for more burst outs by head surgeons. Being a medico is not an easy job. One has to put up with sleepless nights to love less life. I’m learning a lot from people at this place. To dislike or to smile with people is an everyday journey. Every single being, from our friends to a patient and from a patient to back to a friend, colleague, staff or any person surrounded by changes, this is the weirdest feeling. But this outburst of a weird feeling makes me feel more alive, more eager and more focused towards life.
I am sure I am not alone in this, everyone around me is juggling with their own jigsaw puzzle. Being posted in the oncology department made me see how people sacrifice so many things to just be able to live for their own people. They go through extreme pain that no one can even imagine to just live a few more days or few more years. This feeling is unimaginable so I don’t know how I would be able to ever express that in my words.
Every small small thing is countable. The kind of person I am, who hates changes, getting used to changes is something to be thankful for. Someone makes me realise that I have lived my entire life like a princess. I do get things that I might not even deserve, so I need to come out from that to see the real world around me, to not only accept the real world, but to also live that real world with my full heart.
It’s easy to complain every day about small small things that are going wrong, but things are more easier if we learn to appreciate the smallest thing going around us. It’s not always about you having to sacrifice or lose something or struggling so hard to be happy. You just need to believe in your own madness. It keeps your battle on because we are not made to quit even for our stupid or stupidest dream, because we own them.
If you make up to that dream or you don’t, that is not gonna change anything because either it’s your dream or it’s a journey to aim for that dream. Whatever it is, you have earned either of them at least.
It’s fine to fall and most important, it’s totally fine if you want to stand up again and try again, or even if you just want to stay fallen and enjoy that fall. So live your life the way you want to because life changes every minute, every second. Cheers to this craziest feeling, cheers to life, cheers to scary changes. 😊