NOTHING AND EVERYTHING
I feel nothing,
At the same time,
I feel everything.
Without purpose or plan
I wonder, why?
Everything I try goes away.
Unable to fit in
I keep to myself,
set a goal,
Find a way, not to lose control,
Why does it never feel right?
This feeling in my gut. it’s sinking,
Sometimes it all feels like, too much.
The fog appears, making nothing clear,
thoughts get lost. moving too fast,
Can’t keep track, wandering through,
Doors in my head, too many broken
No way to open,
I try and express feelings within,
But it isn’t accepted,
They say they want to help,
But they don’t want to hear,
People fear they will be infected,
they treat me like I am demented,
It is easier for them to reject,
What they cannot understand,
What it is like,
to feel nothing
And at the same time,
to feel everything.