Yes, things got worse in this period of time. Sometimes, I was at my lowest. It was hard for me to change and adapt to the new situation. But as the saying goes, “The darker the night, the brighter the light”.
After suffering from long despair, I figured out that it was the way of life. Because when we believe that it’s not okay for things to suck sometimes, we consciously start blaming ourselves. We start to feel as though something is inherently wrong with us, which drives us to all sorts of overcompensation.
Hence, it becomes very important to choose whether to get bothered by everything around us or not. Developing this ability leads to something I like to think of as a kind of “practical enlightenment”, which means becoming comfortable with the idea that some sort of suffering would always be inevitable.
That changed my outlook on my situation at these hard times, and a new me was born that day. I had a sense of confidence like never before. I had faith in myself. And I came back stronger than ever. After all, the only way to overcome pain is first to learn how to bear it.