Sometimes all she wants to do is be closer to Allah(s.w.t) and obey Him, but she still fails.
She doesn’t want to talk or listen to anyone and just please Allah(swt) but then she realizes she always ends up giving up to this dunya. Yet Allah(swt) is still there for her. She cries but nobody hears her, she screams but nobody hears her expect Allah(swt) or sometimes she doesn’t even want to cry, the tears don’t even come, the feelings fade and silence occurs. She doesn’t know what to do but she also knows what she needs to do, she needs to get closer to Allah(swt), rely on Him and His plan. And know that He is the best of planners.