Dear me,
What’s up? I hope you are doing well. Nowadays, I am not getting any letters from you. Though we talk every day, but letters have their own essence… isn’t it? I know we both are fond of letters and that’s why I thought I should write a letter to you.
So girl, slow down for a second—I have something to share with you. I know life is not the same, the way your “mini-me”, your inner child thought it would be. It has been awesome, boring, fun, crazy, painful, with lots of expected and unexpected things.
In short, there is always a lesson to be learned.
But despite all these, you’ve managed to keep your head up. I have seen you stayed strong even in the worst situations, it’s a great victory. Thank you for not giving up. Well, I must say your “don’t give up” attitude is because of your genes.
I have noticed that you have changed a lot in the past 3-4 years.
Actually, I should say you are back and damn comfortable in your own skin. I can see the real Prerna, the way you were in school, but now the more polished version of that. During our past life journey, you were naïve in the real world and I left you there as it is.
I am very sorry that I was not great enough to keep alive your mini-me. I am sorry I was lost. Worst of all, I witnessed I was dying inside you and couldn’t do much about it. Instead, I should have told you: “Don’t try to fit in. Don’t be afraid to be different. Don’t be ashamed of who you really are.”
Then I wouldn’t have lost you.
But I am proud of you despite all the dark clouds you found the ray of hope. How strongly you picked up broken pieces, put them together, and remade yourself and your mini-me.
This change made you more beautiful, gracefully strong, and more independent—in the same way, the child in you imagined her future self.
I can see how beautifully you are embracing your quiet introvert personality. Self-love and care are pouring on you. And, you got back this attitude: “main apni favorite hoon (I am my own favourite)“.
I know you work really hard on yourself. And you are still a way to go. But sometimes you are way too hard on yourself. You are your worst critic. I understand discipline, sincerity, planning, ethics, and principles are core parts of you.
But, when something doesn’t go well you get upset and stressed. Thus, you miss the beauty of the moments. Don’t push yourself too hard for trying to be perfect. You are perfect, especially with your flaws. Accept yourself as “imperfectly perfect”.
So with that, be gentle with yourself. Everybody is dealing with their fears and insecurities. You are not alone. It takes time and everything will be fine. I know it’s easy said than done. But you are the one who stood for yourself and didn’t settle for the life you don’t deserve.
Wounds take time to heal, sweetheart, and that’s okay. Everything happens for a reason and what has happened till now leads you here.
Things worked out exactly the way they should be and the way you wished. Success, failures, heartwarming, heartbreaking, were all worth it. So, breathe and trust the supreme being.
I know you are very much grateful for this life. After all, you have got such a great supportive family, a true friend in every sense, and indeed the best partner you ever hoped for.
Oh, it suddenly struck me do you still believe that Hogwarts exists? Good! Give me a high-five. This is the only imaginary thing from your childhood you are still keeping real.
And, do you still talk to your plants? Great! Swings are still the way to your imaginary world? Awesome! Your inner child is still alive. I know you have a lot on your plate these days.
But its glad you ordered that unicorn mug. I know how much you love unicorns and how you get that happy face when seeing them.
So, my all-time thinking and observant young woman, let me tell you this you are complete and whole. You don’t need anyone’s approval for it.
And this time, sweetie, I am not letting you go ever. The way we both are connected no one will understand. Sometimes in our own imaginary world, sometimes on a tour with a book, sometimes crying under the shower, holding the emotions to the breaking point, etc.
Whatever it is but it was always you and me, forever…
I have shared a letter which I wrote for myself hoping that you’ll be inspired to write your own love letter. I am sure you will be surprised how this little act can work as a great healing.